Since the day I left Luc, I have been fighting for survival – physical and emotional survival. Sadly, my son didn’t survive the fight. I was not able to protect him no matter how much time, money, and emotional energy I spent. These past two years have been a nightmare to live through. For many who are reading this post, you understand all too well the trauma of Family Court. While most will not lose their child to a senseless and pre-meditated murder, they will lose a sense of themselves in that courtroom that they might spend the better part of their lives trying to recover. Others, will be forced to watch the emotional death of their child as the war rages onward. To all those still in the war, I hope that my story will continue to give you the strength to fight – even on the toughest of days. The days when you have run out of money – days when you are crying on the bathroom floor – and days when you wonder if you will ever see your child again.
I write to you all of you to thank you for your support. For those of you who have been following me from the first post, those of you who have just discovered my story, and those who will continue with me on this journey for justice and fight for reform.
A reporter recently attempted to get me to comment on what seemed to be turning into a “pissing contest” with Luc in the media. This reporter flippantly referred to the death of my son, from a “crude journalists worldview”, as a “great story”. Reading the murder of my son referred to in this way made me to want to vomit all over my computer screen. In light of this “crude worldview”, I have decided to take a break from blogging until the end of the trial.
(Note: The majority of media I have spoken with have been extremely sensitive and supportive. The above refers to a select few, and not the majority I have encountered. For those who have reported on this case with respect for my son and his life, I thank you.)
I am no longer in any legal war with Luc. It is not my job nor is it my place to respond to every inane defense that Luc’s lawyer attempts to throw at the wall during this process. As is the case in any criminal case, the State brings criminal charges against the individual. This current situation that Luc finds himself in is of his own doing. The charges, the trial, and the eventual conviction are all things the State will pursue. Of course, because my son was the child murdered, I clearly have a strong desire to see that justice is served. That being said, this case is The Commonwealth vs. Rams – Not McLeod vs. Rams as it was when I still had a son whom I was trying to protect.
I am not abandoning the blog, nor will I stop writing. I am simply taking a break to force a shift in focus here. I don’t have any special insight into what the State is planning on presenting. In fact, I have purposely tried to stay away from the gruesome medical evidence surrounding my son’s murder. I hope that the media will focus on the facts, and watch as the case unfolds to the public through the trial.
In the meantime, I will keep engaging in meaningful dialogue surrounding child safety, domestic violence, and family court on my Facebook site: https://www.facebook.com/cappuccinomama
Stay strong folks and please pray for me and my family through this process of waiting for justice for my son. Prince was an angel. I have said time and time again – that child saved my life and without a doubt the lives of many whom he will never even meet. May you rest in peace my little boy.
Thank you for your support and understanding through this difficult time.